My weekend...

This weekend has been pretty shopping / fashion jam packed, so I thought I'd share some of it with you. Starting with yesterday, I had some very overdue art books to take back to the library, so I headed into town, which of corse ended in a trip to Bristols new shopping centre, Cabot Circus. First stop - Urban Outfitters. With out a doubt one of the greatest shops known to man! Ater atleast an hour browsing the rails and rumbling through the shelves of vintage goodies, I decided on this brown leather mock-croc bag. It's perfect as you can wear it as a clutch in the evening (even has a perfect little handle, cause we all get anoyed at holiding it under our arm all night, don't we?), or attatch the gold chain and wear it on your shoulder during the day. Lovely, for £38 :]. After spending a considerable amount of time in Topshop, and realising everything I had chosen the week before had sold out, I was feeling a wee bit down hearted, but just as I was walking out of shopping center I saw River Island, and remembered how much I love this seasons colletion. Very glad I made a trip there, as I bough a lovely warm cream cardy for £29.99, with gold and pearl buttons :] perfect!

So, by the end of Saturday I realised it was the 4th of the month and I'd already spent all of my allowance (which comes on the 1st!) Not very smooth, Gemma!

But fear not! Today my Mother and I had tickets for a fashion show in Bristol, sort of a "Bristol Fashion Week" style thing. Just, minus any designer labels! But hey, I love a bit of high street fashion - and what's better for inspiration than seeing it paraded down a catwalk in all its loveliness!? After this, my mum (despite having not been speaking to me all week, due to a little incident involving a tattoo...) decided I just had to get some new black shoes for job interviews, however after we spent hours looking for a pair and I still couldn't find any I like, she decided to make me a deal (which worked very much in my favour) - she'd buy me the gorgeous tartan Dune platforms, if i found a pair of work shoes within the next half an hour. Perfect! Got the platforms and put a pair of 3inch black heals on order in Kurt Geiger for work. Then to top it all off, we fell in love with a bright floral mini dress in H&M, which she bought me, seem as it was only £19.99.

However, one thing that has really been playig on my mind today, is M&S. For years ow, we've been hearing about M&S' new look, with the press supposing they are now a "cool" brand. I've always dissagreed with this, claiming they are trying too hard to be young, and to target to a market which is way off their current consumers. But today I was actualy shocked, when models floated down the catwalk in some totally stunning clothes - from M&S! My favourite was this Peruna Coat, which I even went to try on, but unfortunately wasn't available in my size. Maybe I won't put M&S down so much in future!

Drama Junky

Now, you can officially call me mental, 'cause it's official, I am! Why i it, when everything's going well, I hate it!? I think I'm a drama junky.
Let me (try to) explain. Girl likes boy. Girl thinks boy doesn't like girl. Girl is happy thinking he doesn't like her as girl can moan and get upset and generally be a moody, attention seeking bitch. Boy tells girl he does like girl. Girl is happy - for about 30minuts. Then girl gets bored. Girl doesn't like boy anymore.
Well, yea I'm sure you can guess who the moody attention seeking bitch is.
I have issues.
He's lovely.
Why does this not make me extremely, estactically happy.
Can someone please find me an egotistical, cruel, annoying, horrible guy instead of this Mr Perfect? Cause clearly it's doing nothing for me.

Q&A

Thanks for all the questions you sent me guys, there were some great ones, so here's a few I've answered for you!

Q. Are you a student / if not what's your job!?
A. I'm currently in my 2nd year of college, studying Art, English lit/lang and Textiles. And tbh, I love it!

Q. What did you wear today?
A. Vintage chiffon top (navy blue with tomatoes printed all over it - so cute!), brown and gold Piel Vacuno belt, dark skinny jeans, white daps and a red hoodie. Locket and pearls to accessorise!

Q. How do you manage to fit so much into your life - partying, shopping, making/designing clothes, art and writing this amazing blog!?
A. I guess it must sound like I do allot, but you haven't mentioned any of my "hungover days" or "lazing around doing nothing days" which generally occur 1-2times a week and are when do my recovering from over doing myself all week! As for day to day, I just avoid "lazy time", I know if I don't get that English essay done I won't be able to go to that party, so I just do it. Ad i suppose the designing, sewing, painting, writing, etc is what i do instead of watching TV or talking on msn!

Q. What do you choose first when getting ready, the clothes or the accessories/shoes?
A. Generally I choose clothes, normally a top/dress and then the rest revolves around that. However if I've just bought a new scarf / pair of shoes, and I'm desperate to wear them, I'll work an outfit around that.

Q. Do you want to work in fashion?
A. Definitely, I'm currently applying to art foundation courses, and once I've done one of them (providing I actually sort out my personal statement, etc and get onto one!) I want to apply for a degree course in womenswear design. Exciting stuff!

Q. Will you still have this blog in 5 years time? what will it be like?
A. I can't really see that far into the future, but I love writing bout fashion, and the world of Internet media is flourishing, so who knows - why not!? What it will be like, I don't know, though.

Q. What's the most expensive item of clothing you own?
A. I don't really go in for designer stuff, but I do have a Chilli Couture Jacket which was £245 and a pair of Kurt Geiger boots which were £190.

Q. All time favourite song?
A. Gotta love a bit of Johnny Cash. Hurt is beautiful and Rig of Fire for the memories.

Q. Best time of your life?
A. Reading Festival 2008. Without a doubt!

Q. Would you consider having "guest bloggers"?
A. Yes, if anyone's interested, let me know!

Q. What matters most to you, fashion or music?
A. Fashion always comes first, But I do love, love, love music!!

Q. The one thing no outfit is complete without?
A. Some sort of glitter/ sequins. I always wear at least a little bit ;].

Love, lust or lonliness?

Here's my issue this week (well, it's not something that came about this week, or will go away at the end of it), perfect girls. I've never believed that one girl could have all the qualities a guy looks for, until recently.
Yes, I am talking about one girl in particular, and I know her life probably isn't as perfect as it seems, but that's not the issue I'm addressing - I'm saying this girl is absolutely perfect for the guy I like. And he knows it, clearly, as they dated for 6months. So, someone please tell me how to cope being compared to the guys ideal girl!?
She's gorgeous - a complete knock-out - she's clever, she's rich, she's funny, she's well-behaved and most of all, she's just oh so nice. And when compared to her, the things I like about myself suddenly seem like things I should be trying to change. I may be a pretty, sexy girl, but I'm no way near her level in the brains department, I don't live in a mansion with a perfect family, I'm badly-behaved, recluse, and if we're honest, I'm not always that "nice".
Before it's been the spontaneous, sexy, dangerous side of me that's attracted men, but now I'm being judged for the Bellini/Marlboro light in my hand. And who can blame him - when sat in between me and "Miss Perfect" why would he choose to listen to my drunken flirty small talk when he could be having an intellectual conversation with an equally beautiful girl.
He says he doesn't want to get back together with her as she's too busy with her work and family for a relationship - but it's quite clear he's still in love with her, and how does the new far-from-perfect girl even think about competing with this "perfect" girl, who he has a deep meaningful connection with.
It's just got me thinking, am i destined to always be the "go-between-girl"? The one who is good for a bit of fun, to rebound off an ex, before finding the next "Miss Perfect" to fall in love with. And if I don't want to be seen as this girl anymore, does that mean I have to completely change who I am? Stop the partying, the drinking, the smoking, the lads and the general fun? Well, if it does then I guess I'm the "go-between-girl", because I'm not giving up my fun for a guy, who's not even that exciting (and I've had cuter, to be honest!)

So...

Day: Saturday Activity: Thrift store shopping, attempting to do the pleates on the skirt I'm making. (going badly, very badly!) Fags: 17. (Awful :[.) Alcohol intake: Last night, far too much. Today, 1 unit. (Pre outing drinks while writing a blog post and dancing in my underwear - I think so!) Money spent: £85. (Money I don't have, but spent on lovely things - pale denim high waisted shorts, cream vintage blouse, oyster vintage across-body bag, fags and a bottle of wine.) Indulgence: Fags, wine, cream cake at lunch. Listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=58sLe738L8w (Amazing remix. Oh come on - I did mention the nderwear dancing!)

All conclusions reached in the last post have...well, lets just say "not gone to plan" haha. Ah well, I'll let you know when I get some self-control.

On a personal note...

Day: Sunday. Activity: See below! Fags: 0! Alcohol intake: 0! Money spent: 0! Indulgence: Sex and the city, ice cream and coffee. Listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yV9f4w9SXEc

After watching 6 episodes straight of Sex and the City (while trying to ward off the hangover cause by 7days of drinking - sun, sea, sand and margaritas, although fun do not make for a relaxing holiday) I have managed to resist giving into the two habits Sex and the City always triggers - smoking and shoe shopping.

After Carries tenth Marlboro light in one episode and her talk of "the few good looking, single, male, smokers left in the world" I realised how pathetic and how "90's" the whole image was. As much as I love lighting up, and I love a hot guy with a fag in his hand (yes, I do have a thing for "bad boys" as it happens), it is a fact of life that a smoker cannot date a non-smoker. And that's a fact that really limits your options. Having heard in the past lines like "Sorry, I really like you, I just don't like the smoking" I've previously laughed them off - how could someone be so pathetic to give up on someone they like because of a bad habbit! But, maybe it's fair enough, and maybe I'm sacrifising longe term happiness for a short term fix? So, here's the plan; stop smoking untill October the 10th (2months time) and if nothings changed I'll return to my quick fix, but if things are looking up, I'll put it down to the smoking and keep off 'em. Sound like a plan?

As for the shoe shopping, as I noted Samantha's odd looking wedges, I realised this was something else that should be left in the 90's. The obsessive amounts of outfit changes also made me think about the 30+ pairs of shoes hidden all around my flat. Maybe if I was SJP and needed 20 outfits per episode there'd be a reason for them, but on days like today I haven't even got out of my PJ's. Maybe I should stop pretending I live a Sex and the City lifestyle and stop wearing stiletos to the pub!?

So, for today I feel I have achieved a lot - not only have I survived an appalling hangover, I have done it without smoking or shopping (lets just forget about the 20+ cups of coffee and tub of Ben and Jerry's!)

The Beginning of Wisdom...

Day: Saturday. Activity: Recovering from the hangover from hell, and starting this blog! Fags: 4. (not bad at all) Alcohol intake: Lastnight, about 6 units. Today, none (but I'm due to leave for a house party in a couple of hours, so that won't be true by tomorrow morning.) Money spent: £15 (pretty good going - fags, Vogue and credit.) Indulgence: Vogue (as much as it is a nescesitiy, I also cannot afford it, so from now on it's going on my indulgence list!) Listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqM6oLM63YE

AS my first post on the new blog, I could spend a few paragraphs introducing myself and what I'm all about. But I won't - for one it's not necessary, secondly it would just bore you and thirdly, I'm more excited about actually starting it than writing this nonsense.(Although, I suppose in writing all of the above, this included, I have bored you just about as much - and wasted as much time - as if I had written an introduction. So, for the record I do know I'm off to a badly thought out start!).Anyway, just to make it clear, my intentions for this blog are to tingle your taste buds, not only with the latest on the fashion scene, but also to chuck in a bit of music, literature and art for seasoning. Enjoy.